YOU JUST ARE WALKING PAST BY ME

You just are walking past by me

And I stand still

I stand still & motionless

In your beauty and innocent smiles

And I am gone forever.

Now I see the blue sky

And the floating white clouds

And I start sailing with them endlessly

I sail in their misty white

And see a deity smiling like you with all dignity

On 30th July

Closing my eyes I reviewed the day and found that the day has slipped stealthily. I have not learnt a new Idea, I have not made anyone smile nor have I made myself smile. I wrecked my brain to recollect at least one or two achievements of the day which may give me a sense of my worthiness but I miserably failed. From the day break to the good night wish to my wife I found no substance to appreciate. The time made me a fool.

why my wife summoned me with so much urgency

A call from Sairam in the evening broke my sleep. He asked me to come to the main road and join with him and Shirish Sir  in the evening walk. I was happy because for the last couple of weeks our trio (i.e. Sai,Atma and Shirish) had not been together in the evenings. It was because of incessant rain and bad weather. But today we did not care and came out. When I joined with them I came to know that they wanted me to come with my vehicle and drop them in their quarters as they had not brought their umbrellas. But soon we decided to enjoy the rain with our group-walk under one umbrella which I was carrying. We stopped at the Panigrahi hotel and started gossiping and I can bet that the gossip was hotter than Panigrahi’s coffee. Before I could finish my coffee my wife called me home urgently. She appealed me to come home urgently in a crying voice. I suddenly came home and discovered that black ants have attacked my wife and one ant had bitten so badly that it was bleeding. I heaved a sigh of relief because it was just an ant and it was not a scorpion. But I could not understand why my wife summoned me with so much urgency & seriousness. The possible explanations may be.....

1.       A wife does not like another human beings come closer to her husband although they are males and his colleagues.

2.       A wife may not like her husband enjoying life beyond the borders of family when she is engaged in cooking and caring the child.

3.       The wife might be taking a test to ensure her importance and the commitment of her husband.

A page from my life

Today what I write is neither for advertisement nor for showing off the glitter of my life. I write today because I deeply feel that a few people, places or things around me have deeply rooted in me. Without them my life is unimaginable.

You all should know that I have few friends with whom I fight. I have few students whom I shout at and I have a few responsibilities that I love to shoulder.

Today I take them all for granted but I know it very well that after a couple of months when a departmental transfer lands me somewhere else I shall truly miss them all. I can also bet that after 5 years if I remember all these people (if I am alive), I shall love to remember them as the most wonderful and loving people I have ever seen.

How, one by one, 7 years of my life I have spent so swiftly often take me by surprise. Each day, however monotonous, bears many things to remember, cherish and celebrate. Those incidents of my life may not have any relevance or importance to the general public but they are now precious because after few years I shall love to remember them.......

Like every day today is a usual day but I mark this day as extremely special because one of my friend who has the dubious distinction of being late in all his undertakings broke all his past records. He completed his task 4 hours before the scheduled time. Perhaps a tsunami of change has touched the planet and I am ignorant of it.

I remember those days of the year 2006 when we had to take our lunch at 4pm. It was like that we had a mess where every member had to cook the meal in turn. The days when that friend used to have the kitchen task we would make our own arrangements to fight hunger till sunset. While cooking, in his characteristic style that good friend would be so intolerably slow that everybody had to postpone the lunch-time.

However, nobody minded his snail’s pace because he cooked well.............

The friend whom I described in the above paragraphs is too fast today. Preparing 800 ballot papers by the end of the ‘WHY I STAND’ meeting of the college is not an easy task and he did so. I shall not thank him because I am not so formal to him. But I shall upload a few photographs of the day (i.e.18^th July,13) so when we see it, we shall remember that we had wonderful years together

FUTURE

A complete 360 degree rotation of the clock’s hour-hand and one day of life is subtracted. Night thickens and sleep paralyzes the body. Silence prevails for some time. Then there is snoring and the silence breaks. And by the time the snoring ceases another 360 degree rotation snatches the night from life.............The man sleeps and time also slips.

It is another fine day. The day glides upon earth with the golden rays of the sun. Now the man is awake. His usual life ensues -the same tea-breaks, the same file work, and the same course of life. The time flows with its repetitive nature. The wait for a burst of happiness like winning huge money in lottery does not end. The e-mail icon does not blink with his beloved’s mail but he awaits and looks expectantly. If the present does not bear the fruit of joy then future must have it. Future is the safe haven to look for it because future is the other name of all possibilities. Therefore ,the wise say, when everything is lost the future still remains.