The Inner Vacuum

From the pen APN

Uncontrolled tears like summer rains

Deadliest mental and emotional pains  

A deserted heart with blood stains

All in a cauldron of hellish fire

Bubbled and bubbled with steaming ire

To cleanse the soul and deeply admire

The prevailing calmness of lonely heart

That replaces all restlessness and dirt

Making desires gradually fade away

Through suffering and dismay 

Deep and long sighs of inner vacuum

Played the music and the sonorous drum

And the essential inner vacuum haunted

Till the haunt broadened the mind

And till the feelings softened

And till the stubborn egos diluted

And mind got thoroughly cleansed

And the heart was well rinsed

Relations were reexamined

And long-gone past was buried

For a new life and a new beginning

Of hope, joy and mutual understanding

Still Grateful for that Hurtful Love (A mini story)

From the pen-APN                     

As one of the loveliest human being, you came into my life and gave me invaluable experiences to understand myself and the world around me. In your hugs I have seen the friendliness of a beautiful soul; in your intimacy, I have learned the language with which hearts speak…

Today you will go away from me and I will withhold myself from you not to disturb your life anymore. It is painful and hurts like hell but you have your life and I have mine.

You carried your bag to the bus stop on your shoulders. You signaled a bus. The bus slowly stopped and you got into it. I also turned my back and looked at the asphalt road that shone with the blazing sun. You carried your bag and I was carrying mine. My bag was like yours but I carried something more valuable in the bag and that was the sweet memories of the days we had spent together… 

Politics goes on… and people quarrel over power. Money matters and truthfulness loses its luster but life still struggles... Infidelity is there; break ups are there; misunderstandings are there. But it comes with a realization that the feelings of the heart are above everything else and the signature of love is indelible in the soul for all times to come. And it is a different thing that we may not meet again and we may not hug again and we may not cross each other’s roads.

I open a new chapter of my life this morning. I know the dark hours of the cloud will subside and the morning sun will herald a fresh beginning to me. This hope motivates me now to go forward. Life is giving tests after tests and I thank my Lord who has arranged so beautiful experiences for me and has helped me gain the most from my life.

Love you God…love you world…I am still alive and I have decided to live awesomely the rest of my life.