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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

I prayed and my world changed.




FROM THE PEN APN
 
I frantically searched for something. But I was unable to understand what I was looking for. Was I looking for some fresh air or for some ennobling news? Was I waiting for the dawn of Satya Yuga? Or I was expecting a magical change that will open up my world to Buddha’s serenity.

Desperately I opened the windows for some fresh air. I opened the TV for an elevating experience. I went through the newspapers for some solace but I was miserably disappointed. What I needed was not found. The falsehood and momentary glitter of the world seemed useless.
Then I threw all my ambitions and goals and I decided to relax. I left what I used to hold with clenched fist. With my empty hands I embraced the sky and looked upward.
Now the earth moved round the sun as before. The stars appeared and the evening descended upon the earth as usual and the moon also smiled as usual. But a heavy weight got removed from my heart. My heart pumped blood to my brain and it beat with the eternal music of the creation.
And like a butterfly I felt when I said, “I am not the creator but I am created by Someone to share the light of a Supreme Being.”
I was relaxed. And I saw the waters of the sea glowing and the life-energy scattering brilliant rays of enlightenment and happiness all around.  
Just I closed my eyes and I prayed and my world changed so.......

Saturday, February 22, 2014

ON THE EVE OF 5TH MARRIAGE ANNIVERSARY.....



FROM THE PEN APN

Five years back she did not know me, nor did I. But one day my parents took me to her home. She came nervously and sat before me. She smiled a little and then spoke a little. 

Her smiles and little cute figure melted my heart. So in next two months we moved around the fire-altar and solemnized our marriage. All our family members were happy, relatives were happy. My friends danced and now I continuously dance at the song of that girl (of course ‘that girl’ is now my wife and she has every right to make me so and I do not mind it)

And recently we cut a cake celebrating our 5 years of togetherness. But the first piece of the cake she gave to a 3 year old child and then came my turn. Now I am the second person in her life and that child is the first person. But I and my wife share something common. We both call that child as ‘OUR SON’.

Friday, February 21, 2014

THE TASK OF WRITING ONE PAGE..........From the pen APN



I felt nostalgic when I heard the song. It was the very song which I had listened 13 years back during the Annual function of my college. I was the secretary of students’ union and I had chosen that song to energize the mood of celebration during the function.
Today, by chance, when I stumbled upon that song, in a restaurant, I was silenced. My tea began to become cold as I journeyed into the past. The music played on and refreshed some of my fond memories. With the melody of the song many beautiful creatures who had once occupied my mind and heart became alive. Their vibrant smiles and youthful appeals once again flashed in my memory. I relived the moments when I was a teenager and a college student.
I remembered about Miss Mishra who was the most beautiful girl of my class. But I never talked with her because I never wanted to show my weakness for her. I was respected among my friends for my integrity and I had never let it go. In the last days of our college she had wished me good luck for a good result. But that day also I remained cold. I saw her eyes and they told me that she loved me. In reply I wanted to say her that she was the most beautiful girl I had ever met but I stopped with a short, “Thank You.”. She took her LADYBIRD cycle and slowly disintegrated from college campus and also from my life. UNSPOKEN LOVE NEVER DIES.
With the glide of time I have moved to different spheres. But when I look back to those days, from where I stand now, I feel those times as brilliant as sunshine. INNOCENCE IS PURE JOY.
With some books and notebooks I would climb the upstairs to attend my classes and some of my classmates would come downstairs. In the mid-way a momentary stay, exchange of words, glances or just waving of hands were sufficient to make the day going. FRIENDSHIP REALLY RECHARGES YOU.
In those times colleges were without uniforms and the girls and boys would come in all coloured outfits. So the colleges used to be more colourful then now.  Those days are gone now.......IN THE PLEA OF UNIFORM WE ARE COMPULSORILY MADE COLOUR BLIND.
In those times a college student could easily recognize his/her beloved from half a kilometre by the colour of his/her dress. But now that sense perception is missing. 
I had a good friend. One day he expressed his love to a beautiful girl of my class. The girl’s face turned red. Before the girl could speak anything my friend left the place out of fear. The next day my friend saw that the girl had come wearing the best dress. Seeing my friend, she gave a beautiful smile. In happiness now my friend’s feet did not touch earth. Out of joy and celebration he took me to the nearby restaurant and gave me a marvelous treat. That day I ate ice cream, cakes and chenapoda in the restaurant and my friend had paid the bill.
After six months, I discovered that the girl considered my friend as one among her many college friends and nothing more. By that time my friend had 3 papers back.
I remembered how my seniors used to hang out in a particular place in the upper floor. The place was less crowded and gave a good view of the college. We used to call that place ‘Lovers’ Point’.
 THE TASK OF WRITING ONE PAGE IS OVER AND DEAR READERS DO NOT TAKE THE THINGS AS REAL.