The evening was lashed with a heavy
shower and I was caged in a small cramped place. When the rain stopped I came
out and saw that it had already been dark.
I smiled and thought for a while
that my life had a situation akin to the evening’s incident. I know it very
well that I am caged in a typical small circumference which stifles my
evolution. But I do not leave the cage. Out of compulsion or out of my inertia
or out of fear I remain in the limiting cage and when the rain subsides and I
come to consciousness, I find darkness everywhere.
I was in a job which had little
financial return and I wanted something better but I did not have better options
at hand. Previously my decisions involved myself but now my decisions had
implications on my newly formed family. So I feared taking any risk and I
continued as before. And I felt in me the very characteristic attitude of the
common man who adhered to a set pattern of a monotonous living. In whom the passion
to excel dies out. I felt as if I was bent on my own weight. My high dreams
were crushed. I was overpowered by an impulse to choose the easy way of compromise.
I compromised with my dreams and attempted to shut the windows that once showed
me rainbows in the open blue sky. I lived but without my spirits. I carried out
the orders of my boss and satisfied myself with the little return he gave for
my dispirited service. I slowly became a common man.